Zachary was my third child within just 3 years and when I found out I was pregnant with him, I was a bit overwhelmed to say the least. But God had BIG plans to bless me through this amazing little boy! The name Zachary means, "Jehovah hath remembered". That is exactly how God used Zach in my life - to remind me, in the midst of severe depression, of His love for me:
Shortly after Zachary's birth, I found myself steeped in depression that wasn't going to be cured with the simple prescription that my doctor quickly prescribed for me. Several prescriptions, counselors, and countless prayers for deliverance later....I was still floundering in a sea of gloom. But as God began to peel back the layers of 25 years of emotional baggage He spoke very clearly to me one night as I sat rocking my little Zachary to sleep...... I was SO in love with this sweet little bundle, and yet felt so guilty for being unable to really relish it for the darkness that had encamped around me. But that night God spoke to my heart so clearly it was almost as if it was audible. He made it clear that He loved me even more than I loved this precious child and He would see me through the darkness back into His marvelous light. All I needed to do was trust and rely on Him the way Zachary was dependent on me for his every need. God had not forgotten me. He was still very much engaged in my life even through the darkest nights.
That was just the beginning of countless ways God has continued to teach me through Zach's life. Zachary has been at my side 18 years now, and he blesses me so! His wisdom beyond his years has astounded me on so many occasions! I know God has plans to use Zach in mighty ways. I am incredibly proud of the man he is becoming....godly, wise, persevering and learning to lean on His Savior more and more every day. He has been trudging through a season of trial lately, but through it all he's letting God refine him....and he will come through an even stronger man be because he trusts the One who is Faithful!
Thank you LORD for blessing my life with him.
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